mood slightly uplifted today...tml there would be a farewell dinner for one of my colleages who is promoted to the sales dept. her accounts would divided among the rest of us. undergo training with her for one month on her accounts that i would be handling. i'm still very blur abt my garment account..hopefully i dun cork up..or else i'm dead meat!! the big boss aka ceo would come hunting, together with my manager and supervisor! scary.....cold sweat....but i shall take it as a challenge!! must alwiz try to look on the brighter side of things....

it's monday...surprisingly i dun really feel the blues as bad as other mondays. irony. perhaps it's coz i have a lot of work to clear, so time seems to fly today. was my usual smiley self at work tho one colleague commented that i was rather quiet today. irony.

listening to band music on my way home....i missed the days when i was playing the clarinet. it's still my fave woodwind instrument. as i listen to pieces like alvamr overture, overture jubiloso, omens of love...etcetc...memories of the past came back to my mind. those were the days i missed so much. the long hours, the sweat and toil, the scoldings and conflicts, most of all the frens whom i've made thru band. as wat i hear others say, people who join uniform groups are often closer to their eca frens than their class. quite true...being in a uniformed group takes up a lot of time. most of my close frenships are forged thru the long hours of band practices.

klarinutz...a word that may seem alien to most people....but it's close to my heart. it's the word my batch created for our clarinet section. a bunch of nutty people who enjoy making music with the clarinet. i'm glad that the name is still being passed down to the new batches of clarinetists. i enjoy being a 3rd clarinetist. tho most people would think that playing the 3rd clarinet means u're lousy or that it's ultra boring (which i agree to a little extent), but i love the mellow tone of the clarinet's lower range.

okok...i better not go on else this entry is gonna be ultra long........shall tok more abt my passion with the clarinet at another time. hiak..:)

dunno what to say....suddenly at a loss for words....a heavy heart.....too many things have been in my mind. today i just got an added emotional burden. it's supposed to be a happy one but turns out quite the opposite. life's an irony....and i fully agree. why am i feeling so lousy for the past week ?? why? why? why? i cant find the answer myself................just tell me why..........

in a lousy mood....actually didn't feel like coming online at all....dunno y i feel this way. it's quite sudden actually..perhaps coz towards the later part of the afternoon, i had a lot of shipments to handle. then again, i've not been in a really fantastic mood since last week. not that i'm utterly depressed or something...just dun feel good. dunno what rubbish i'm uttering....shows the kind of state of mind i'm in......

i wanna be with you....if only for tonight, to be the one who's in your arms to hold you tight.....~mandy moore 'i wanna be with you'

finally finished watching beautiful days..my eyes are still a little watery. i didn't cry but could feel tears in my eyes, especially in the last disc. it's soooo touching!! it's a good good drama....go watch it if u haven't. such a comment coming from a person like me who dun cry at shows, i can guarantee that's it's really fantastic!

it's monday and everyone in the office was having the blues today. the weather ain't making it good....most of us were sleepy. i was struggling to keep myself awake. moreover i didn't have much to do today, so time was hard to past. tml's a brand new day again....so fast!

everyone went bonkers in office today...think it's a friday and it's more stressful than other days as there're often much more shipments. i was laughing non-stop at one point in time coz one of my customers from china is called Leaf Ye. Ultra funny sia....in case u dunno Ye ( a Chinese surname ) means leaf in chinese. it's really hilarious to see how China pple find english names. boy , wat a good joke to liven up the stressful environment.

beginning to wonder how many pple actually read my entries here...too bad i dunno how to add comments box. also i'm too lazy to figure out how to change the layout for this blog. sometimes i just wanna find a place to express myself, but yet again, this is the world wide web, it's not too good to be too open. one of my frens questioned me about the previous entry of missing someone. is it impt to know who that person is? perhaps to some....but to me, it's just another person in the world. anyway, that feeling's no longer here today.

on my way home, heard radio dj lingzi on 93.3fm toking about feeling empty aka kong1 xu1. she said weekend's here and some pple can take the chance to party or their moods will be much better. on the other hand, some pple feel depressed, empty or lonely. she read out an article abt a cat. basically, it tells pple to take note of the little bits of thigns happening around us. how a cat lzing in the sun can feel so contented. humans are alwiz busy chasing after things....like money or work that we sometimes neglect the pple or small little things around us. it's hard to learn to be contented in a materialistic world i feel. it's all in the mind and lotsa self -control i guess.

finally found some time to do up my homepage. it's done in a rush and i feel the standard i'm setting for myself if getting lower and lower. haiz...how sad. it's my interest but yet after working, i dun hv the time and energy to continue it. life's all work and work and work. that's life of a normal working adult.

was driving home today when suddenly i get the feeling of missing someone. doubt that person would never know but i just missed that someone. for no apparent reason. you know how sometimes when you listen to certain songs, the songs would remind you of certain people or incidents? i'm like that.....certain songs have a certain impact on me. i'm reminded of past incidents, be it happy or sad. so happened today on my way home, it's kinda a lonely feeling. the feeling of missing someone. dun ask me y, but i just felt this way. perhaps coz i'm driving on my way home alone in the car, listening to my cd alone in the car while focusing on the road to get home. it's a weird kinda feeling....

was watching the korean drama 'beautiful days' just now....it's indeed nicer than winter sonata in terms of the storyline. winter sonata revolves around 3 pple...but beautiful days is more interesting and has more characters. some of the scenes are a little too fairytale like in my opinion. eg. how many pple can really find such strong and true love for each other? last time i use to suan my frens for watching too many dramas...till they fantasize abt this and that...now i think i'm falling into that trap myself. how nice it would be to relive some happy moments in the dramas...afterall, life is a big stage where we are the actors and actresses. dun you agree?

work is becoming more hectic for me as i take on more and more accounts. get to learn more things and time flies by quite fast too. i'm looking forward to my KL trip over the long weekend in early nov. i was so worried the manager would not grant my leave but thank my lucky stars, she did. so i'm off to a short break!!! oh yeah!!!! finally can get to use my polo ralph sports bag. :D

lee hom concert was great......except the seats at spore expo really sucks!! never watch a concert at spore expo....the seating arrangment is simply horrendous even if u bought the most expensive tickets (which i did). irritating!!! it's all flat so if the person in front of you is taller, good luck to your neck as you would be stretching and craning your neck for at least 2 over hours.

lee hom is really multi-talented. can play all sorts of musical instruments and sing quite well too. watching him perform 'live' is really different from tv or listening to his cds alone. he looks better in real life too. unfortunately spore's very strict abt pple's behaviour during concert, so we were very restricted. cannot stand on chairs, cannot go the front....etcetc. even he could feel rigidness. he even joked about getting a fine if he asked all of us to crowd in front of the stage. must aim for a chance to watch a concert outside spore....

the big boss and the overseas manager treated the airport office staff to lunch...it's all pizza and kfc !! the food was just about right. the overseas manager is from san franciso so he thought a large pizza was really large (as in american size) but din expect it to be so small. it was quite fun esp since the food is place just the next table to me! heehee....:)

envious of a fren who's on an exchange prog in the states now. got to see so many photos of the various places he visited. doubti would ever have a chance to go to the states. i can't stand long plane trips and moreover it's gonna cost a bomb! only can admire the phtoos that people have taken.

guess it's the late nights and the hazy weather that cause my flu. been sneezing away and slept for 2.5hours this afternoon. woke up feeling much better except for a terribly blocked nose and got around clearing my things. it's only weekends that i can find some time to do my own things or run some errands.

felt i needed a change of environment besides the office and the home, so i went to imm for a walk. the little shopping theraphy i got from buying some items made me very happy. haha..been a long time since i last went shopping. it felt good. of coz i cannot afford to go around spending every week. need to set aside some cash for a rainy day.

worked till late today.....had 'supper' instead of dinner coz it was at 10pm. think i can expect more long nights in the near future. lotsa of shipments and i'm handling more accounts as i learn more. perhaps that's good as i get to learn new things and also time flies. but i really got no life now after work.....it's office home sleep office....and the routine repeats itself even on sats. phew!!

so busy till my oct issue of ice cube is not out yet. dunno wat theme to do on this time. shall think abt it tml.....need my precious sleep.....still must drag myself out of bed tml for work.........