got my appraisal from my manager this evening as my 3 month probation is fast coming to an end on 4th dec. it's overall a good one tho there're areas of improvements to be made. after that talk with my manager, somehow feel a little more inspired and feel better about the job. learning to look at it from a more optimistic point of view.

finally it's friday....tml will be a hectic day for me. morning hv to work, afternoon tuition and i'm looking fwd to at nite as i'm gonna meet up with my jc frens. been quite a while since i last saw some of them. this outing is the highlight of the whole week. been looking fwd to it.....:)

just heard over the channel i news about a bomb hoax in holland village. tonight is thanksgiving so a lot of people feel that terrorists would attack places where there would be a lot of ang mohs gathering.....one example would be holland village. talking about bomb hoax, i was surprised to see a traffic jam in the changi air freight centre on my way out in the public bus. apparently there're spot checks for outgoing vehicles. usually there's no such checks so early in the evening. it's the first time i've seen such a thing happening.

cars, vans and trucks had to open up their boots or containers to allow police to take quick checks. kinda scary.....hopefully nothing ever happens around this area. it's very very very close to the airport.......

my sec sch band went on channel u news tonight for winning the 2nd place at the asian band competition in bangkok. they've gone a long way since way before my time. now they get to buy the latest instruments, hire one of the best conductors and have a new band room with airconditioning! lucky kids......haiz...if not for work commitments, i would gladly join the alumni band. they're having a combined concert with yuhua alumni next year in apr.

the past few days have been quite hectic for me. often leaving the office after 8pm daily. a stain on the physical and mental self.

last nite while driving home, i finally had the chance to drive 'alongside' a plane which is taking off. i saw the plane in the rear view mirror speeding along the runway...then beside me as i glanced sideways and finally it zoomed past and soared into the sky. such a fantastic sight..no wonder the various gates along the runway never fail to draw a few cars who would park there to admire the planes landing and taking off.

even the carpark where i alwiz park is often crowded with cars in the evening. many families and couples could be seen strolling or sitting on the beaches watching the planes zoom overhead as they land. quite a nice sight except for the loud roar each time a plane lands. well, i'm kinda use to seeing such things after working at changi for almost 3 months.

time really flies....in about 2 weeks, i would be getting my confirmation as a perm staff at my current company. somehow i'm quite amazed at myself for being able to 'survive' for soo long. of coz the stress level is catching up on me. last nite, my supervisor and a few colleagues were talking about stress at work. so far 99% of the people in the office had woken up with a start in the middle of their sleep, remembering that they had forgotten to do certain things at work. so far, i got that feeling once. after waking, i just couldn't fall back to sleep as i was rather worried. that's the kinda stress i'm facing.......but it's still quite under control at the moment. the new girl who joined a month after me is already starting to curse and swear at work. haahaha....

had a really good time out with my ex-colleagues and frens.

the wedding was simple. no fanciful decorations or cards.......ceremony was over quite fast. poon looked really beautiful and radiant in the bridal gown. happy for her! found a man who would love her forever. she's gonna leave juying as she would be moving to seng kang after marriage.

the car show was quite big, held at suntec city. i saw a lot of familiar faces and chatted up with two of my ex schoolmates from sec school. my frens and i managed to get free tickets to the stunt show at 7pm by russ swift. it was simply breathtaking!!!!! his driving skills are damn good sia! then after stunt show, we could register for free to sit in a subaru driven by the spore's subaru team. as we were the batch of people, jas, charlene and i took the white subaru 1.6l car......the driver turns out to be the instructor of the team. we were totally breathless and laughing away in the car. his turns were sharp and brakes were screeching away and he made many turns and twists in the suntec city carpark and pillars. some of the turns were so violent that we had to hold on really tight when he was making those turns. he din use the normal brakes...only handbrake. damn stylo type of driving. we requested for an extra round as we were the last car...he gladly agreed and did more turns for us...........simply fantastic and exhilarating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

worked till 9pm .... took almost an hour to get home. it's tiring...brain and physically straining. din eat dinner at all.....tml still must drag myself to office. can't take it....

must start thinking abt tml's activities...then i'll be more happy. i really need a break....a good break over the weekend. the amount of s**t i had to endure during the week is overwhelming. this line is not suitable for me...no wonder the supply is alwiz not enough. tml will be attending a fren's church wedding and going for the car show at suntec city. entrance fee to the car show is ultra ex @ $20!! phew..it had better be worth the money.

thinking abt my fren getting married makes me wonder when it would be my turn. ahhaha...dun dare to have any hopes about that at the moment, esp when all i go is work and home. absolutely zlich.......... social life.......

been coming home rather late these few days...got lotsa work to do. the stress level is very high...am beginning to feel i cannot take it. then sway sway met with a lot of problems at work. really disheartening........just goe home not too long ago. in another less than 10 hours, i would be back in office again. working life really sux big time.

besides work, i dun hv much energy to do anything else. hardly watch tv and i dun log onto internet daily liao. too tired to stare at the computer again. think i better go dig up some of my new jap drama vcds to watch instead of just staring blankly into the air and wait for my hair to dry.

had a really bad day at work this morning....down on my luck! sheesh....let's not talk about it. the happier news came when i managed to grab a copy of this week's i weekly mag. found the article that the 93.3fm dj was talking about. scanned it and posted it on my website. it's a good read...quite meaningful....the writer expressed the thoughts of most women. women are mainly looking for security and a life-long partner to share their lives with. money, fame and beauty mean nothing to them without love. that's a point the article was driving at. agree or not?

looking around some other people's websites/blogs for more ideas on how to improve my website. thinking of changing the layout of my website but dunno what's to add/remove. i'm not a very creative person...and even if i've a lot of ideas, i dunno how to use the softwares to my advantage. got not much time to learn as i'm rather busy with work.

worked till 8pm+ today...was soo hungry after work then i speeded a little in order to get home earlier for my dinner. starving!! dun worry, i've biscuits on standby in my drawer in the office. tml still hv to drag myself to work....one sat burnt as i've got tuition in the afternoon. doubt i can do anything much tml....perhaps shall dig out my html 4 book and read thru it for some ideas.

got any comments on how i should change my homepage? drop ur comments in my guestbook then....my website seems so quiet..so sad.

was listening to 933fm on my way home from work while driving. the issue the dj was talking abt invokes a lot of feelings in me. it's about love....about loving someone and not being loved back, about how a woman is the happiest when she's in love.

a woman is not happy even tho she has a lot of money, a woman is not happy even tho she has a lot of material goods. a woman is truly happy when she's in love. when in love, a woman can even laugh at a lousy joke. everyday would seem so much brighter than before.

the dj read out a passage from this week's iweekly. i shall go get it and read it for myself...and perhaps scan it and put it on my website. it's very meaningful. i guess it reaches out to all women out there. so frens, whether single or attached, do you agree that a woman is only happiest when she's in love with someone?

had problems trying to keep my eyes open and my mind focused during work today. the worse part was that i had a lot of work to clear from the long weekend and i'm totally blurred out. dunno where and how to start clearing up the mess. spent the whole morning trying to clear my backlog. luckily there were not many new shipments today or else i surely cock up everything. *cross my fingers*

kl trip....think i'm one of the pple who bought quite a number of stuff. some of my frens didn't get anything much for themselves except for a pair of shoes and some odd stuff. the roads and buildlings were really old in kl....the way they drive is simply horrendous!!!! they cut lanes, speed, drive thru red lights, squeeze.....etcetc...u name it, they've done it. it's really terrible...but it's a good test of driving skills indeed. the taxi drivers had a great time trying to 'chop' us during the long weekend and the rainy nights. luckily most of the time, the taxi drivers went by the meter.

some of the shopping centres like mid valley mega mall and klcc were huge!!! still, there weren't many things to buy. i also didn't intend to spend too much money there.

on my way home from work, a colleague of mine was relating to me her shopping experience in hong kong this july. it sounded really fun and tiring (from all the walking and shopping). very tempted to go but it would cost at least 2k with expenses, accomodation and air ticket. almost 2 months' of my pay!! hmmm but it would be fun to go there to buy stuff.....ermmm on 2nd tot, must do more exercise to lose weight as hk pple are generally very skinny. would be difficult for me to find clothes there. already starting to plan my next hol destination liao....haiz...the perils of working life.

just got back from my KL trip....quite enjoyable and fun. too bad it was raining on both nights. ate a lot of cheap food. didnt really buy many things except for 2 pairs of shoes, a tee and a b.u.m. jacket (which i've been eyeing since the time i went jb). only the food and drinks are cheap...the rest not really so.

very exhausted from my long bus trip and the lack of sleep....shall talk about it more the next time.......nitezzzz

last night went out for a farewell dinner with my colleagues. one of them is being promoted to the sales dept wef today. it's a fun dinner...1st time going out with my dept...but unfortunately two cannot make it. 12 of us sat at an indonesian restaurant at east coast park and enjoyed the food. the mgr paid for the dinner. not too bad....quite generous of her....bill came up to $313++. later some of them suggested coffee but it was too crowded at starbucks...so we ended up at a pub. started dirnking and happened it was ladies' night so each lady has two free drinks. by then only 10 of us remained, including 2 guys. so we had lotsa free drinks indeed. played 5-10 to sabo pple on your right to drink. i kena drinking 3 times in a row.

very fun to go out with them...perhaps coz most of them are late 20s early 30s...age gap not too big. even my mgr ( a lady) was a bit siao siao....can fool around quite a bit. thinking of planning to an outing to a pub or disco next time on a sat night...hopefully something will turn out fine.

tml going for my KL trip liao.....quite excited. was busy throwing things into my bag and realised that i actually have a lot to bring!! must start to cut down or else i wun hv any more space to buy stuff.